What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet

3022) when am i going to learn to stop believing that you love me. um that’s right, you want me to believe you so you pity me and feed me lies for your own satisfaction. Idiot.

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3021) you have no idea, how much you’ve hurt me. I don’t think you ever will. But I know it won’t bother you, just because your an asshole and your heartless.

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3055) i’m sick of using sex as a way to be with you. when will just me be enough?

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3044) so every so often you pop into my mind…i wonder if i ever pop into yours. oh and i definitely just creeped on you via facebook…have you ever facebook creeped on me?

3035) I miss you, K. Stupid little things still remind me of you.. I remember all your favorite things. I wish you never broke my heart and at the same time I still wish you were around. I never wanted to admit to loving you, but I do.. As much as I want to hate the asshole you’ve become, I want to keep loving the sweet caring guy I knew. I know you’ll never love me back and I was just some fling to you..

3032) I wished things could be the way they were, like back two weeks ago. Back when I thought you were mine, and all mine. Now it pains me to admit that you were never mine at all. I don’t know how much longer I can lie to myself and to you. You don’t look at me the same way anymore, you don’t talk to me the same way anymore, and it feels like a piece of my heart has been crushed. What happened to us?

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JACOB BLACK IS SO HOT! (:

My G, Taylor Lautner!

You never know what is underneath that veil.

” The hardest thing you will ever have to do is be yourself.”- Rachelle Disbennett-Lee

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FYP II IS FINALLY OVERR!!!

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I want to think for my future, but i have no idea where to start. What if i can’t cope.

I don’t want to marry a rich man, i don’t want to be so dependent on people no more.

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” A rainbow was created with unique and different colors; together they standout as one whole beautiful thing. So are we.”

Katya Bertrand

Every time I hear people pointing out the differences between each other, I feel that we have forgotten that is what makes us unique and complements one another.

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I want to be a happy girl again, but it doesn’t seem to be working very well.

Getting old?

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” Skeptics may argue that prayers are only coincidences… But as an English Archbishop once observed, ‘It’s amazing how many coincidences occur when one begins to pray.’”  – Ian C. Campomanes

BITCHHHH, I LOVE YAAA!

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I pray, my Lord my soul to keep. Let it rest, let it strive for its worth.

I don’t want anything no more.

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and you’re so tired you don’t sleep at night
as your heart is trying to mend
you keep it quiet but you think you might disappear
before the end

but as far it’s strange that you cannot find any strength to even try
to find a voice
to speak your mind
and when you do all you want to do
is cry
maybe you should cry

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I don’t want to be your substitute.

Maybe you don’t realise so, but you are. And i wouldn’t be surprise if you knew but just can’t be bothered to do anything about it.

But it’s hard to say goodbye.

One day, probably, i will.

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Masked. There ’s always 2 sides to everything.

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It hurts me so.

New year, new resolution? Came out from the mouth of Boon that time, it sounded retarded HAHA. But nah, admit its true.

No resolution, no aims. Like how am now, i haven’t even decide on what am i gonna do after i have graduated.

Pressure of the future, time to really buck up and plan. Face the reality, you are old already, university, adulthood, working place. REALITY.

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Been partying, late nights, heavy eye backs.

But happy!!! Able to hang out with most of my mates, friends. HAPPPY!!!

Have to stop now, start worrying for my fyp, assignments i havent complete. I totally flung my poly studies, and i know i would regret in the future. But its too late!!!

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Its tiring to leave a life of a hypocrite. Trust me i can be a hard core hypocrite. ESP when you did so to me.

YOU are one too, so forget about denying it. Everybody is one.

And its so difficult to trust. EVERYTHING IS MASKED, EVERYONE IS MASKED.

Some how to rather, stories twist, the mind twists, change in opinions and perspectives, another truth comes up, people lie, people avoid, people fakes.

Shame on human nature, shame on the reality.

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True friends hard to find.

Except for my bitch of course!!!

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Learned much in the past year. Many new thoughts and opinions yet to be fathom. Many new views, at how people work, how incorrigible people can be, how people backstab, how people handle such people.

Not good with words, i should just shut before i start ranting that long list.

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This year didn’t start out well, dance is screwed.

I don’t want to care anymore, just let things be. Cause i have no clue what to do anymore, and i have tolerate till the brim that whatever happened and would happen, i just feel numb and forgive.

Please don’t let this year be a screwed up year i pray.

My bitchhh!

Love you! Miss you! (:

Xiao Cob!

My crazy ass rollar coaster ride dance partner.

VIC!

My mad sychronize woman!

Baboon!

Nic!

My part time preacher and stock broker!

Ni-Ka-Chu!

SDIG Latin

My dance group!

SDIG Salsa

Salsa crazy! Though not all are here.

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What am i to do after i graduate, when i have already started missing you guys.

Wish time travel was made possible. Only photos and videos could capture that moment.

Disconsolate.
So much to accept of this world; things you can’t change; mistakes you can’t undo; imperfection.

Have you ever come to a stage of your life, where everything seems so mundane, stagnant.
Nothing seems right; the loneliness creeps into your heart; like the root to that low self esteem.
Where the thirst for attention, compliments, and the need for a true friend or a true lover to fill up your soul.
Knowing you have no ability, but yet still holding up the high expectations.
Helpless.
Many are pretentious in this world. Where is the truth, the door to our freedom?

When would the peace come?
When would it be the time you need not think or worry?
When would it be when you reach the heavens of your dream land?

Who, in this world, would truely know and understand you?
Or even, catched a glimpse of your true self?

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It saddens, when you realized that nothing could truly be a truth.

Every one could be a hypocrite, no matter how right he/she thinks of their own actions.

Every one’s masked, everything’s just a facet.

Unconscious feelings that are being repressed, too raw to come to the surface in any other way.

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Pride comes before a fall.

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You were/are not alone.

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I am here to be your friend. Not an acquittance.

I tried.

You don’t compromise.

I am gonna shut up.

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Busy, stress!

Dance, new job coming up, ut was a failure, competition in Dec, fyp is gonna due soon!

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Mind is too clogged. Just want to avoid everything now so it can be peaceful!