What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet

My bitchhh!

Love you! Miss you! (:

Xiao Cob!

My crazy ass rollar coaster ride dance partner.

VIC!

My mad sychronize woman!

Baboon!

Nic!

My part time preacher and stock broker!

Ni-Ka-Chu!

SDIG Latin

My dance group!

SDIG Salsa

Salsa crazy! Though not all are here.

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What am i to do after i graduate, when i have already started missing you guys.

Wish time travel was made possible. Only photos and videos could capture that moment.

Disconsolate.
So much to accept of this world; things you can’t change; mistakes you can’t undo; imperfection.

Have you ever come to a stage of your life, where everything seems so mundane, stagnant.
Nothing seems right; the loneliness creeps into your heart; like the root to that low self esteem.
Where the thirst for attention, compliments, and the need for a true friend or a true lover to fill up your soul.
Knowing you have no ability, but yet still holding up the high expectations.
Helpless.
Many are pretentious in this world. Where is the truth, the door to our freedom?

When would the peace come?
When would it be the time you need not think or worry?
When would it be when you reach the heavens of your dream land?

Who, in this world, would truely know and understand you?
Or even, catched a glimpse of your true self?

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It saddens, when you realized that nothing could truly be a truth.

Every one could be a hypocrite, no matter how right he/she thinks of their own actions.

Every one’s masked, everything’s just a facet.

Unconscious feelings that are being repressed, too raw to come to the surface in any other way.

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Pride comes before a fall.

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You were/are not alone.

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I am here to be your friend. Not an acquittance.

I tried.

You don’t compromise.

I am gonna shut up.

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Busy, stress!

Dance, new job coming up, ut was a failure, competition in Dec, fyp is gonna due soon!

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Mind is too clogged. Just want to avoid everything now so it can be peaceful!

Rah, braces cutting my lips!

I want to eat this, no i can’t. I want to talk and laugh without having to brush against those rough surfaces!

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I so need to be around with people now. Need some human touch!

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I tried, its up to you now.

I still uphold what i say, its up to you to believe it or not. If you don’t, and you don’t see it as it is, i can’t do much can i?

I just hope things get better.

Saddening to see a relationship that have been so close, break just like that.

No point saying who’s blame it is, because its always caused by 2 different views.

Thats why there is this saying, it takes two hands to clap.

Thats why there is always this saying, give and take.

He wouldn’t listen any way, then why should i even bother reasoning back.

I always listen and try understanding his point of view, thats why he think he’s right?

How can someone thinks that he is completely right! Its like saying you are perfect.

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This is absurd.

I am gonna fight it off even though i know its so fking hard.

You wouldn’t lose me because i give up on you, you would lose me because you gave up on me.

I came as a friend, not an acquittance.

The more i look at how things surrounding you work, how people around each and every one react.

Just makes me feel bittersweet.

Some people react with giving, some people just take freely.

I wonder do people feel contented with what they have gave? Do people feel satisfied with what they have took.

Since giving would never be reciprocal with what you give, and taking too much is over the limits. And since nothing is balance, then how do you live your life?

SIAN!!!

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Its Muse tomorrow!

Feel so clogged, C & G event’s just over, report time!

Was sitting by the backstage waiting for my turn for the finale.

And i wondered, what audience sees, and whats happening at the backstage are worlds apart.

There are so much hustle behind, and the contrast of what audience see are the beauty and calmness, the colours and excitment from the performance.

So i wondered, why am i not being the audience but instead experiencing all kind of anxiety.

Passion? Zaini answer partly after i guess, its because we as performers are much more sensitive to the Arts, we have critical ears and eyes to the Arts, if we don’t, we can just get lost.

I don’t know whether to be happy or can’t wait for Muse to be over.

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Sudden urge of having a getaway.

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When life is all so peaceful, people take it as mundane.

When life is all so busy, people find it too hectic.

When life is so full of heartbreaks, people get emotional.

When life is so lack of heartbreaks, people try digging a hole to jump in.

In conclusion, since life is never balanced, people are never satisfied.

Change is constant, people change, life changes with the varying stages.

What a day.

A fight with my mum, school was screwed, the meeting up was mood reduction, the pre-dinner was screwed, the post-dinner was screwed, and lastly phone’s lost.

Went to bed with a major headache.

Slept for 5 hours? Now awaked by the non-stop hits coughing.

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Thanks lovelies, for the dinner (: (: Appreciated it much!!!

And my apologies if i ruin it for any of yours with my mood.

Thanks lots for those who stood by me, showing me understanding is like literally giving me joy! (:

Been thinking alot lately.

Lost.

It will go, i know.

Just don’t confuse me further.

Am keep my mouth shut.

Goodbye.